Universal Problem

Have you ever encountered a conversation with someone where you find the content of the conversation is full of debate?. All because you and the other party have different ideas, logic, values, background and other obvious criteria. Then the inevitable arguement takes place. If the conversation is somewhat unpleasant, the screaming, yelling, name-calling, swearing and all those -you-know-what- begins. If each side good-naturedly argues on the points with theories, philosophies, science facts, that would be a debate. But if the the conversation is between a critical person, you don't get insulted straight at your face. Then clearly, you will get critical remarks like 'You are just plain weird', 'So cute of you to think like that but.....', 'Stop being unusual and start...','You strange little creature'. You get the picture~. Some people gets a lot of critical remarks and drived them to suffer low esteem. Looking at the big picture, all just because critical remarks were hurled based on difference in mentality, someone has to suffer. I know of people that expressed to me how low esteemed they are, out of confession, i realize that it was never their fault, its the background, how the person was brought up, company they mixed with, its all got to do with how people handle people.

The almost every problem that occur in the history of mankind came from one same core problem; Communication Problem. There is simply lack of communication between people, some talk to much that many 'side-effects' take place without intention. Some dwells in silence where the only one hurt from that is the silent one. The world have become a terrible place to live in if you live in a hopelessness due to not knowing the Truth. In my earlier blog ( 2nd scroll ), i remember claiming that the world has lost every piece of integrity, compassion, ethics, morality and every drop of goodness left in it. I mentioned that i realize what a stupid hell we are all living in. Take this case for study, i was being in fact given a lot of rejection, and channeled anger. I should had thought of it this way, why did this person radiate so much 'aura of rejection and hate'? It is only to this recent time after talking to him that i know what terrible life he has been through. He is an orphan, his parents didn't want him when he was born. I knocked myself on my head thinking how could i be so angry at him.

Even though, he was hurt, he didn't have the qualifications to hurt others; mentally or physically. Especially mental attacks should be avoided. Many realize not that our tongue CAn be the mightiest weapon of all as well as the best medicine. God knew the power of words he gave to us, that he created in a way that our possibly most deadly weapon is guarded by your lips, beneath another level of protection; the teeth. That is how powerful the tongue is that it can destroy or heal.

James 3:6The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.

If you find yourself in an arguement and it begins to head somewhere unhealthy or hazardous to the relationship ( friend or lover ). 1st key is 'Do not aggravate them by fighting back. Ask God to remind yourself to be an encourager. (Don't encourage them to fight back though). "Live in harmony with one another; Be sympathetic, Love as Brother/Sisters, Be compassionate and humble. Just walk away.

Secondly, Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but bless them (Somewhere in Matthew). Whoever would love life and see good days must keep his tongue from evil and his lips from deceitful speech. He must turn from evil and do good; he must seek peace and pursue it ( 1 Peter 3:8-11).

As i quoted before, as much as i like to highlight again~
Ephesians 4: 29Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. 30And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. 31Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. 32Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Cheers.

The Day A History Maker is Born!

Look at the title, lol! I'm such an egoistic person. Nah, probably that's my ambition. Everybody got to have something to look forward to in life right, might as well be something extraordinary!. Anyway,yesterday, 16th of November, that's my birthday ya'll! My only 19th birthday unless i could turn back time. It's more and less like other days except there is excellent food, some presents and more importantly, i could feel myself matured, really, its like *wakes up-hey! i am 19, I'm feel so smart and mature, thank you Lord for the gift!* Woke up later than the usual late because i deserved it. This year, incredibly a lot of people wished me happy birthday, even people that i barely know to that extend.

Went to Chilis with my family for dinner to celebrate my birthday there, photos are available at www.galleriaderyan.blogspot.com

Celebration continues after Stpm, This owes to the fact that my good dear friends are having crucial exams during this month. Lets see how things go.

During maths class today, the class sang happy birthday; which was like utter surprise and a little embarrassed. Anyone would, the maths teacher was about to teach Fourier series when -god knows who- started singing and leading the class to a song. I'll make sure this will happen when any of them is celebrating their birthday next time. Anyway, it was great - totally different from lower secondary times when the whole class would rip your eyeballs off, bruise you and leave you half-dead on the floor. Thanks chemical engineering class...for urm, the song?

Lol.

Thank you to everybody that wished me and made my day on my birthday. God bless you all!.

What Is Bloody Hell Going On Inside of Me!?

My Life In The Light
Its been 1 week,

A week of my own effort trying to find a life. Finding a life apart from You (Lord Jesus Christ). Every second living was dreadful, feeling separated and alone drifting uncertain on a sea of tireless waves. Back then, i thought i left Him and was totally alone, it seems not now, He was like standing somewhat in a close distance watching and challenging me continuously. Amid my solitary conscience, He sent angels in form of friends, and encouragement from a source i could not believe. One of them was my parents, i hardly listen to anything they say, but there was this time they didnt speak wide and long to me but instead gave me a scripture. It was the same as the scripture i had as a poster in my room sticking to my personal locker.

Philippians 4:6

6 Do not be
anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with
thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Meditated on that one simple verse which relates my whole relationship with Him once again. It just brought the peace of God back to me, how awesome the feeling.. I don't even know what word to use that could describe that euphoria. This verse is so one of my favourites.

Anyway, occassionally i do feel like i am the king of excuses because i simply have one for every selfish thing i do; that is whenever i did it. As i claimed in my earlier posts, i believe everyone is guilty of self-centeredness because even the most caring person in the world for once must had once been self-absorbed. There is also the 'what i know i should not do but i do and what i should do i do not' scenario that is just really strangling me literally. For millions of time, i asked for forgiveness from God for my sins which i totally realise i shouldn't do; i repented. But in this context, i actually did not. That is because 'repent' in term means ~to recognize the wrong-to feel regret about a sin or some past terrible actions and CHANGE your ways~. What is bloody hell going on inside of me!? I despise my own behaviour whenever i think about it excluding those subconscious insight which is usually ignored because the loudness in influence is so minimal. This however only serves to confirm my suspicions~ that i'm still a man in need of a saviour!

I am not always this vulnerable and i am definetely not feeling very comfortable but i just felt that this should be recorded that it might enlighten someone in the future; including me. When i type these, i became honesty and the secrets that did run me are defused.

I want to live in the light! I want to shine like the stars in the heavens. There is no other place that i want to because that is right where i NEED to be...

Cheers,
Ryaniquel